Now What?

On my desk sits my printed novel, hefty, crisp, fresh off the printer.  It’s still warm.  A light musty scent wafts from the pages.  My eyes stray to it time and time again and my fingers itch to take it up and read.  I’ve promised myself I wouldn’t reread it.  It’s done.  Finished.  It goes out on the 1st.

“But,” a small pesky voice nags in my ear, “Just once more won’t hurt.  It’s not like you’re going to rewrite it again.”

I steal another glance and my heart jumps.  Did I fix that bland scene where Jamie confronts Josh about his lies?  Is the final battle between Jamie and Sarah heart-pounding or just blah?  And is Pennie’s voice consistent throughout? Maybe just a once over, just to make sure.  No rewrites, unless it really needs it.

“Oh just give it a rest already,” my inner critic scoffs.  “It’s just a load of rubbish anyway.  No amount of rewrites is going to fix that.  You can’t polish a turd you know.  Dump the whole thing in the trash, that’s what you need to do.”

“Behave!” snaps the Muse.  “It’s brilliant, every word expertly crafted.  I know, I told her what to write.”

“Sure it is.”  Critic rolls her eyes.  “Keep her hopes up why don’t you.  You’re just setting her up for an even worse disappointment in a few months.”

I launch myself from the chair, knocking it to the floor.  “Screw this.  Screw you!”  I grab a fresh cup of coffee, a couple of doughnuts, the manuscript and my notebook.  I’ll just double-check.  No harm in that.  Right?

“What you need is a beta reader love,” coos a new voice, sweet, and seductive.

Sometimes, I really hate the voices in my head.


About adsimons

I'm about to embark on the wonder journey of publishing. Come join me as I struggle to get it right, land an agent and get published. All while raising my daughter alone and fighting just to keep my head over water.
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2 Responses to Now What?

  1. emik says:

    If you need someone to read your novel for you before you send it out I would be happy to read it. Also if you want I can proofread it and check for spelling errors that your spell check wouldn’t find. I can offer rewrite suggestions for individual sentences that will cause the language to flow more smoothly without changing the meaning. I will also give you honest and constructive criticism about the story line if it needs it.

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